what other people think

how come i always care about what other people think of me? i've always tried hard to make a good impression. i've always wanted everyone to like me. i know that's not "healthy". i know that i should just be "myself", but sometimes i don't know if i know myself anymore. i always get affected when i learn that the people that i call my friends show me one thing but feel another. i hate it when i'm not told about my "faults" to my face. i've always been the kind of person who wants to know if people have a problem with me. why don't people see that?

* sigh *

i don't know what i'm talking about.

* sigh *

'guess i'm just tired and sleepy. anyway, it's already 5:30am. it's way past my bedtime. but i can't go home yet. i have to finish my shift. darn!