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holiday schedule
tonight is our last practice. we already had a run-through of the repertoire last night, which was good considering we're only 2 days away from the concert date. anyway, here's our repertoire: Emmanuel
The Majesty and Glory of Your Name
Prayer of St. Francis
Ride the Chariot
You
Longest Time
Ti Ayat
Ikaw Lamang
When I Fall In Love
Season's of Love
Jingle Bells Calypso
Carol of the Bells
Diwa Ng Ating Pasko
Payapang Daigdig
Pasko Na Sinta Ko
Pasko Na!
Hark The Herald / Angels We Have Heard On High / O Come All Ye Faithful Medleywe won't be singing the songs in that order, mind you. i think we'll be singing the religious songs and the love songs first, then we'll conclude the concert with the christmas songs. our musical director told me earlier that the first part would be in "serious mode" while the 2nd part will be in " kengkoy mode". well, here's my schedule: dec25 pm - depart manila
dec26 am - arrive tugue, rest, lunch, practice
dec26 pm - showtime!
dec27 am - depart tugue
dec27 pm - arrive manila
dec28 am - depart manila for davao
-- vacation!!! --
dec30 pm - arrive manila from davaohectic, huh? ;)
holiday rants
i feel so depressed. aside from the empty feeling i had yesterday: 1. we had to report for work today. 2. i am really feeling pressured about the up-coming concert on sunday. that is like, 3 days away. i still have a lot to do before we leave for tuguegarao. choreography, lyrics, blocking, etc. 3. i still haven't bought any gifts for anybody yet because i don't have the time. :( 4. i can't deposit my reimbursement check. it seems that my account has a "cash deposits only" restriction. i need to present 2 valid IDs at the SM-Makati branch to lift this restriction. and i only learned about it this morning. WTF! * sigh *so much to do, so little time!
gmail invites
i just checked my gmail account, and WHOA! I have 4 free invites to give away! :D so for those who want one, just email me @ vaniety@gmail.com. ;) first-email-first-serve basis only. haha. :p
unforgettable songs
i've been wanting to post snippets of the songs that really touched me these past few months. enjoy! :) Constantly, you're on my mind
Thinking 'bout you all the time
I can't sleep no matter what I do
I just keep on thinking 'bout you -- Constantly by Vanessa Williams I miss you
It's crazy to pretend that I don't think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too -- Miss You by M.Y.M.P. Oh, It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Oh, It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me -- Pieces of Me by Ashlee Simpson I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be
A fool wondering what might have been -- What Might Have Been by Lou Pardini Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah -- If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys * sigh *i feel so...! ;p
concert updates
we're 6 days away from our Tuguegarao concert. i'm already nervous for so many reasons: - 2 of our sopranos still has like 3-4 songs to study. songs that we can't scrap from the repertoire because of one reason or another. - we would never be complete for practice until the concert day itself. - we still have to learn the choreography for around 4-5 songs. - we still have to polish most of the songs. - we only have 4 practices left. but despite all these, i was excited last night because i was able to finally learn this Ilocano folk song (just don't ask me for the translation :p) : TI AYAT TI MAYSA NGA UBING
Ti ayat ti maysa nga ubing
Nasamsam-it ngem hasmin
Kasla sabong nga apag-ukrad
Iti bulan ti Abril
Ti ayat ti maysa a lakay
Aglalo no agkabaw
Napait, napait, napait a makasugkarcool, huh? :D
yet another not-so-ordinary sunday
yes, i'm here at the office -- working. it is during these days that i really appreciate my family. that i really miss them. the light banter, the meals together, and just being home...! early this morning, i was lucky that my mom woke me up (i would've been late for work had she not thought to do so). when i got out of my room, i found my parents having breakfast so they asked me to join them. during the meal, we were talking about my nieces. how cacay sleeps beside my dad because she has a hard time sleeping when she's beside her sisters, how yesterday bea immediately got her shoes when she was asked by my dad if she wanted to go with him, and other anecdotes (is my term right?) here and there. after a while, i already had to prepare for work but somehow i couldn't make myself leave the dining table. i really wanted more time with my parents, but i know that i have to report for work so i just kicked myself for a reality check. at that moment, i realized how i miss my family so much. and i also realized that i am a very lucky person to have parents who love me so much. parents who are still here with me. who support me in my endeavors. who always take care of me. who look after my needs even if i don't appreciate them as much as i should. i admit -- there were times when i don't agree with their decisions because i believed they were irrational. but i understand them better now. i know that they just wanted me to grow into a responsible person. i can honestly say that at the back of my mind, i have always known. it's just that i have been very selfish before. therefore my feelings would get hurt when i didn't get what i wanted. now, i'm enlightened. i guess these are times when you appreciate the people you love. to Nanay and Tatay: i love you! ;)
miss engg
every year, the Engineering Week is held at the University of the Philippines College of Engineering. a variety of games, shows and events are usually organized for the organizations of the college. i am proud to say that i participated actively in those events during my time. aside from that, i was able to win in some of the events. ;p the culminating event of Eng'g Week is Miss Eng'g. my college organization (UP CURSOR) bagged the title last year. this year's candidate (Raef) was lucky enough to be included in the top 5, but not in the top 3. however, we're still proud of him because he got the "Miss Talent" award. to Raef: congratulations!
another big favor
again, this is for my college org. :) here's what to do: 1. Register to my dotster by texting DOTSTER REGISTER [nick] (ex. DOTSTER REGISTER HOTSAUCE) and send to Globe(2383), Smart & TNT (228), and Sun Cellular(2388). 2. Set your profile by texting DOTSTER PROFILE [age]/[sex]/UP-CURS/description (ex. DOTSTER PROFILE 19/m/UP-CURS/Tall Dark Handsome) and send to Globe(2383), Smart and TNT(228) and Sun Cellular(2388). 3. Invite your friends to my dotster by texting DOTSTER INVITE [your friend's mobile#] (ex. DOTSTER INVITE 09161234567) and send to Globe(2383), Smart and TNT(228) and Sun Cellular(2388). again, it would really help. thanks! :)
big favor
Please support my college org (UP CURSOR) by texting MSENGG[space] UP-CURS to 2383 for globe, 228 for smart and 2388 for sun. This is just for today. One vote would really mean a lot! :D
college life
i miss college. i miss UP Diliman. i miss Eng'g. i miss my org ( UP CURSOR). the people... the activities... everything! it's been a while since i've visited the tambayan because our barkada usually just meet for dinner at libis. during the first year after our graduation, we would meet at the tambayan. but lately, we'd rather meet at the gimik venue instead due to accessibility issues.
* sigh *
the Engineering Week is nearing its end. tomorrow night, the event is Miss Eng'g. this is usually the event which almost everyone go to, including the alumni. it would be the best time to see people again and rekindle old friendships. but i'm not sure yet if i would be able to attend. aside from my work load, i'm kinda' feeling under the weather since yesterday. and that's just sad. very sad.
* sigh *
anyway, i'll just hope that our org will finally be the Engineering Week Over-all Champion (EWOC).
GO CURSOR!
CURSOR SEXY!!!! ;)
this and that
just heard from our project manager that there's a 90% chance that we'll be required to report for work this weekend. also, our christmas break will start on the 24th pa. pardon me for the expression, pero POTAH! what the hell is the company doing to its employees? are we like robots here? WTF! hehe... OA ba? :p anyway, here's a poem written by my friend for her ex: Time flies and tells a story of us
You and I, a flicker of something that I can't grasp
Conflicted by lies and deception so unjust
Yet bound by a friendship that seems to last
Unsure of where the truth begins and ends
I question my faith in humanity and kindness.
But so determined not to harbor hate within,
My soul gathers all the pain therein.
Maybe tomorrow I will learn to hate and lie
Perhaps we will simply fade and say goodbye
Yet if friendships are as strong as youth
Maybe I will earn your respect enough to deserve the truth.
You and I, a hope that may or may not be
Whispers of something that I can't see
Broken promises and shattered dreams
Still nothing will ever be what it seems
Life itself teaches me to hold on
Clutching onto mem'ries time has spawned
Hoping that someday they will give you the key
And maybe enough courage to fight for menice, huh? :)
photos
 | here's our choir (Voice Symphony) at San Sebastian Church after the wedding ceremony. |
| |  | this was taken at the reception (in Teatrillo). Tammy and Aki (face not shown) were deep in conversation while Ea and i pose for the picture. ;) | | |  | this is Francis. he used the lace table cloth as veil and the bride's garter (caught by Rommel) as the headdress. he's holding the bride's pseudo-bouquet (caught by Ruth). |
new color sheme
i found this neat blog color scheme from msn. the basic color is blue (one of my favorite colors). i'll be applying it to this blog site because bullish doesn't like my black background. hehe. :p anyway, watch out for it! ;)
the wedding
my sister's wedding is finally finished! after weeks of being pressured from all the preparations, it's finally over! ;) the wedding ceremony took place in San Sebastian Church while the reception was held at Teatrillo, Intramuros, Manila. i'll post pictures soon. ;) anyway, i just want to share that i'm so proud of my choir. thanks to Teatrillo's great acoustics, the dynamics of the songs we rendered were very effective. we truly sounded grandioso. it was just sad that we weren't able to record ourselves. we could've saved a lot of money for the recording of a demo tape. :p oh well, we sure impressed a lot of people and that was enough for me. i actually felt like i'm on cloud 9 afterwards. :D to voice symphony: thanks so much. you were all great! :)
v6 goes international
so much for the drama in my previous posts. i'm back to my usual happy self. :)
anyway, our choir's christmas party theme for the year is.. ta-da! International! each member will represent a country (kinda like miss universe). aside from wearing the national costume, the member will have to create a booth of the country he/she represents. the booth should showcase the country's finest products, places, culture, etc. and it doesn't stop there...the member should be able to speak the country's language (or at least be able to converse with the accent). he/she also has to bring a cuisine of the country.
when i first heard about this, i was shocked! how could we possibly prepare everything in a span of an hour or so before the party? but then i thought...this would be fun! so to hell with the preparations! i just have to do my best, don't i? :p
i guess now you're thinking which country i chose, right? it's INDIA! :D now, if anyone could help me with some ideas for the booth, i'd be very grateful! ;)
closing cycles
By Paolo CoelhoOne always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, ! your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill. None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else. Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important. Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are. ----------------------- i actually received this article in one of my emails yesterday. aside from being a nice read, i can really relate to it. you figure out in which aspect. :p
dark side of your sign
got this from an email. it's interesting... -------------------------- Capricorn (Dec 22 - Jan 19) You are rather materialistic and it is fueled by your fears of financial disaster. This makes you complain about monetary woes, irritating many with your obnoxious attitude. You can also be a social climber, manipulating your way up the ladder; name-dropping all the way to the top. Once in a while, you'll have morbid thoughts about Death something that scares you because you have no control over it. You tend to be obsessive about your mortality sometimes. Advice: Stop worrying about losing money, and you'd rid yourself of unfounded nightmares. Stop manipulating others and you'll be free to concentrate on attaining your goals. Get rid of your phobias and you'll be able to relax more and enjoy yourself. Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18) You tend to be too idealistic and naive sometimes. Practicality gets thrown out of the window by you many times. Cool and aloof, you rarely want to deal with deep emotions. You like to give advice but don't like to receive it. And ideas and inspirations that you sometimes neglect or follow through with them are constantly bombarding you. Or else you are constantly shifting focus, giving people the idea with no staying power. Advice: Take time to explore your private feelings. Not all people see things your way. And just because you come up with ideas, don't expect other people to do all the work for you. Learn to trust people and accept advice. Pisces (Feb 19 - Mar 20) You are an escapist - you have this knack of avoiding issues if they seem unpleasant. You delve into past memories to escape your present woes. There is also a tendency towards alcoholism and even drug abuse - you are on a search for some kind of 'high'. You also love to flirt and too much of it may send the wrong, dangerous signals out to other people. Once in a while, a dark mood will descend on you and you become rather unsociable and withdrawn. Advice: Trust your instincts, but also be in control of your perceptions. Whenever the escapist tendency hits you, join a seminar or get a pep talk from a friend to get your perspective right. Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 20) A warrior at heart, you thrive on challenges and any strife and dramas, you are tempted to stir things up, just to keep yourself happy. You are also rather intolerant of mistakes and don't have patience for weakness or failings in others. And sometimes, you can be quite a snob as well you like to be seen at the right places or wear the right clothes. And you're also prone to bossiness. Your restless nature may make you quit a project suddenly if you can't sustain the interest. Advice: Get off your high horse and pay your dues before people will accept you. Learn to be more tolerant of others and try to see the other person's side of the story. If you believe in what you do, you can move mountains. Taurus (Apr 21 - May 20) You are stubborn and like to hold onto things, not wanting to let go of anything or anyone. You are slow to anger, but when you do get worked up to a rage - everyone step aside! You also have a selfish streak and can be quite sneaky as well. And although people may see you as helpful and agreeable, you sometimes have an inner struggle wanting the approval of others while sticking to your own opinions. You also tend to be suspicious of others and question their motives. Advice: Stop being mean and try to be nice. Learn to forgive and let go of your past disappointments. Learn from your mistakes and have faith in yourself and others as well. Gemini (May 21 - Jun 21) Your devil-may-care attitude sometimes could bring harm to yourself - you tend to live on the edge sometimes. Many of you believe that you don't deserve success, somehow feeling guilty for it. You may give others too much of yourself sometimes that you lose yourself. You may be prone to suppressing motions as well. And at times that makes it difficult for you to accept affection and love. Advice: Work at listening to others and don't be tempted to try dare-devil stunts all the time. And try doing something for yourself and once in a while, in between, doing favors for others. You're human, after all. Cancer (Jun 22 - Jul 22) You can get carried away with emotions - your anger is overwhelming and your sadness can depress all those around you. You're also ultra-sensitive to other people's emotions and are affected by these as well. You tend to react before you think and then brood about what you may have done or said wrong. You are also prone to periods of morbidity, thinking dark thoughts. Feelings of insecurity creep in now and then, making you snappish or else you try to win the approval of everyone at your expense. Advice: Accept that you are hypersensitive to emotions and work with yours. Go with the flow and by doing the right thing, you set an example for others. Work with others and this will help build your confidence and open you up. Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22) On the rare occasion you lose your temper, you can turn into a savage beast. You seem to need an audience as well, to help boost your confidence and ego, sometimes. Other times, you get caught up in the outward dramas of your life that you neglect what you're feeling inside. This results in a delayed reaction when emotions sneak up on you and you get hit with a whammy. You also tend to be proud and aggressive, cloaking these with your charm. When things don't go your way, you get impatient and may even throw a tantrum. Advice: Learn to spend some time alone with yourself and get to know yourself better. And learn to experience your emotions at the moment; don't store them up for another time. And know that not all means justify the ends. Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22) You have a martyr complex, feeling that you were put on this earth to do good work and not receive any credit for it. You tend to be ultra critical of yourself and others and you also worry about things that are beyond your control. A little pessimistic sometimes, you tend to be an intellectual snob. You bottle up all your insecurities and fears, and hesitate to reach out for help. And once in a while, you become a busybody - that's when you also feel responsible for other people's problems. Advice: Modesty has its own limits - take credit for your efforts. Give yourself a break and know that you do not have to be successful in everything you do. Keep focused and don't get tangled in other people's affairs too often. Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 23) Your inability to reach a decision in matters of personal action is legendary. You like to weigh all the alternatives and hear every side of an argument - but this may take time and opportunities may pass you by because of it. You also like to expand energy on people who may not deserve it. You want to help the underdog. You are also sensitive to criticism and may take mild statements of fact very personally. Advice: Follow your instincts and act on them - stop sitting on fences. Don't blindly trust people; learn to be a little more discriminating in your offers of help. Learn to think for yourself and don't be swayed by persuasive tongues. Scorpio (Oct 24 - Nov 21) You have a revengeful streak and a long memory for past hurts. Sometimes you're downright spiteful. When you suffer, you make sure others suffer along with you. Sometimes, you may even use deception to get what you want and to influence others to stay out of your way. You may even believe these untruths and unrealistic fears will grow on you. Once in a while, you may come across someone that just rubs you on the wrong side for no apparent reason and you make it your mission to bury him or her. Advice: Flight the negative emotions that arise in you, and resentment will not sour your life. Don't' give into temptation to tell lies, learn to conquer your strong tendency towards revenge and things will fall into place for you. Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21) You've got a big mouth and unwittingly hurt an insult people with it. You can even go to utter strangers and give unsolicited advice and comments. You also seem to enjoy verbal duels with others whenever you can. And you sure can make sore losers, even suspecting foul play if things don't go your way. You have a knack for confrontation and you can't resist being sarcastic. You also don't think too much of many people, because you have a mild superiority complex. Vanity is also a trait in many of you. Advice: Learn with whom you can be frank otherwise keep your comments to yourself. Discretion is the better part of valor. Curb your cockiness, and you can combine it with your concern for serious issues, aiding in your search for truth.
miss you
by M.Y.M.P.Miss you… Everyday and every night, this feeling I'd fight Try as I might but I won't win, I surrender, I'd die You are winning here alright Every morning when the sun would shine on me I'd flash a smile but deep inside I feel so sad and lonely I need you here and now I miss you It's crazy to pretend that I don't think of you The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow I miss you Oh how much longer can I hold on to Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too Miss you… All I want is for this love to last forever You walked away, never came back, oh I tried to recover I can't bear it boy alright When I hear a song that we had used to share I'll try as I might to hide the tears, and when the pain is over I'll wish that you are near I miss you It's crazy to pretend that I don't think of you The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow I miss you Oh how much longer can I hold on to Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too Miss you
my favorite movie
while working on a project, i remembered the poem that Kat (played by Julia Stiles) recited in class in the movie 10 Things I Hate About You. it goes like this:
I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
Not even close,
Not even a little bit,
Not even at all.
coolness!;)
goodbye
by Alicia KeysMhmn bye bye How do you love someone That hurts you oh so bad With intentions good Was all he ever had But how do i let go when i've Loved him for so long and i've Given him all that i could Maybe love is a hopeless crime Giving up what seems your lifetime What went wrong with something once so good How do you find the words to say To say goodbye If your heart don't have the heart to say To say goodbye I know now i was naive Never knew where this would lead And i'm not trying to take away From the good man that he is But how do i let go when i've Loved him for so long and i've Given him all that i could Was it something wrong that we did Because others infiltrated What went wrong with something once so good How do you find the words to say To say goodbye If your heart don't have the heart to say To say goodbye Is this the end are you sure How should you know when you've never been here before It's so hard to just let go When this is the one and only love i've ever known So how do you find the words to say To say goodbye If your heart don't have the heart to say To say goodbye
goodluck!
i would like to wish these 2 goodluck for tomorrow's badminton tournament. they joined the 1st Davao Corporate Cup, and i'm very excited for them. :) guys: i wish i could be there to watch you, but it's not possible at all. ;p i wish you all the best! i know you'll both be great. show all of them what you're capable of. but most of all, just have fun!
reminiscing
i've been meaning to post this picture for the longest time, yet i haven't been able to until now. i really love this picture. when i look at it, i feel calm. i can just envision myself as a kid playing in this "tree house" with my friends, climbing those steep stairs, hanging by the wooden bars and railings, and just having fun! i could just remember those days... me and my siblings would meet with our neighbors at night to play patintero, taguan, syato, and the like. * sigh *those were definitely good times. moments i would always remember when i want to feel happy. :)
yoyong
it's bed weather again. want to sleep. need to sleep. right. now. zzz... dream on! :p typhoon yoyong will be arriving tonight. the government offices already declared half day. it would really be hard for the employees to go home when the storm hits tonight, so i'm hoping our office would do the same. but all i could do is hope, hope and hope! but i really really really hope that the "upper people" have sense. now! we may not be experiencing the storm yet, but i'm positive that we will soon.
december na!
* sigh *10 days before my mom's birthday and my sister's wedding. 15 days before simbang gabi. 16 days before the company christmas party. 17 days before the company christmas break (hopefully!). 24 days before christmas. 26 days before our mini-concert in tuguegarao (hopefully again!). 27 days before my vacation in davao. Ü hectic schedule, huh? :p oh, well... so much to do, so little time. ;) anyway, i always feel wistful during the holidays. i'm not sure why, but i do. i remember one of my choirmates telling me that she becomes sad during christmas. i think it's because there a lot of happy people around her and those people suck out the happiness in her. or something like that. whatever! i just feel that 2004 is passing by so quickly. a lot of things already happened to me. things that i don't regret one bit. i just hope the next year will be as exciting, if not more. no, i won't go and tell you about my new year's resolutions. i don't have any because i don't believe in that stuff. :p am i blabbering already? haha. :D i'm just glad i started the month right -- i wasn't late for work for a change! ;)
cookie shot 2
i was able to post the picture of the girls. now, these are the boys. or are they? :p you figure it out! ;) anyway, this picture was also taken at the Our Lady of the Abandoned Parish in Marikina. this was, again, before the wedding. it's cool to have a camera when you're killing time. really! :)
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